Sorry Friends

sorry all.I am too bg these days. I am not joking and not making fond of government activities but its true that i am repeating things as much that if anyone starts to run from kathmandu he will reach Delhi but my list of invitees for a function will not end.

My worry of not having work in the office is over and want a long break real soon.Last week was the hectiest week.Just of think of poor me without petrol in the old rustic tank of age old motorcycle, compelled to commute in a bus.By the way do you know that there are only half of the buses plying in the street of kathmandu?If you are returning home after seven in the evening then you should be prepared to walk.That is too in the middle of the road as there are only motorcycles in the street which are less injurious to health in comparison to oil tankers.

So i am busy friends and don't have time to write in here.Hope you all are well and reading my week old "Are you there?"

I know u are there as i score century in my free hit counter and help me to achieve a thousand run.I will try my best as always?

Are You There???

I am so pessimistic these days not beacuse of the unknown factors.Tension starts as early as you are in bed.Crushing sound of juggernauts in the street right below the window, early morning chat of workers preparing for the long awaitaed house works and the sarcastic comment of the early morning walkers disturb my sweet morning dream.But the irony is , my sweet dream is not similar to that of others.In fact the dream ghost starts to chase me whenever i have that dream.If asked to a religious person, they may declare it as an effect of planets.Quizzical enough, I too sometimes, these days is quite interesting about the planet signs though it was not me genre of thinking before.

So the tension props in my tea time as well.ADSL connection, like the bulbs in night bar, is never sure to be hosted, make me curse my decision to be a member of the service.

Now comes the traffic in the road.Oh god that's the worst part and the hell in earth.Long cue of motors, impatient bikers, dust in the road, maintenace work continuing in side by footpath,people marching in the middle of the street, shrilling horn of large buses and a traffice police amidst all this, is throwing his life out to manage the impossible.

Any how the entry in the office in this mood won't do any good to the fellow workers, senior and juniors.Lack of work in the office and overdose sometimes makes me drizzy.Phone calls by friend to meet after the office, is rare these days since there is no one around.All are busy with their stuffs and there is no alternative other than to go home straight away,

Sitting alone in home watching some melodramatic reality show and the much hyped nepali media won't do good for the empty mind unable to think anything.

Oh god is this life?i dont like it at all.There's no one to talk .Are you there to talk to?

I Miss You

I am not feeling well.Unknown, alien, drizzy and many others adjectives that goes in line with some that have here mentioned are haunting me.Is this normal to be abnormal without any reason.I have completed my exams recently.May be this a reason behind my obsession with these lonely adjectives.It might be because of the insecurity of anxiety.Does this mean something?Is it leading me to something?I am sure not.

Well i,sort of,have certain desirable future ahead and everyone think my present is absolutely fine.But i am not comfortable with all i have, all i am doing and all i am thinking right now.It doesnot seem right and thats what i am trying to say, this is not right but, whatever.

What to do next?There are many options and there are many ways.My behaviour to neglect the things with me and going behind the mirage is doing nothing right, in spite of torturing me.But i am sure at one thing.I miss you

जाने तु या जाने ना

Story of a young love, tranquilizing the light of love and the love in a friendship" as shown in jaane tu.........I watched it yesterday and this is the movie which i enjoyed thoroughly for 2 and half hrs after a long period of time.Though not a movie buff but i like to watch them occasionally.Its easy watching when they share light hearted comedy and romance, a lil bit.Hindi movies are not that special regarding romance as the only way they show it, is through a dance of half naked girl.This is different and i love the plot and script.Its not a special scene movie but shows an importance of total movie, excelling in every department.

Friendship and love in real life also is very hard to differentiate.As some old saying, guy and a girl can never be a friend, there's always love in the best of friendships.I wonder is it true?I think this is true coz love is something that you can experience after knowing someone from head to toe and friendship is the way for that.Even in the group of friends, you have that someone special, guy or girl, to whom you care about more than others.That is special and that is love.Since cupid is there all time watching you and sharing everything in the friendship does have a chance to fall in love.

So don't hide it.It's always there.and you know that but everyone is avoiding it.

What am i writing?i know its worthless but who cares this is mine and i am writing what i am thinking?

Now What????????????????

and what's next?i am fed up with politics all around.what to do next?it is haunting me more that twice a second.Exam has just completed and i now can say that the pressure exam creates is not that easy to defeat.Each second of exam approaching near you is the worst moment to think about.But the last question you solved in the last day is the moment you and only you deserve to cherish.I don't damn care about the result and i am happy about the fact that i prepare for an exam even i was in a position to not take that.That was a choice and i accepted the challenge that was put forward by inner me.

What else?i am surfing the net and now is thinking of another exam again.It is not letting me go as there is no life without exam and i know it will be more hectic than this one.I know i will take the challenge and prepare for that also.It will take my breath away and squeeze my brain like a lemon done by the roadside vendor.still i will do that coz there's my GOAL.other side of the exam