What is happening, I don't know.What is the right thing to happen?I don't know.What is the aim of my life?I don't know.Is this the anonymity in my life?I don't know.What would be the solution and how the enlightenment inside the vicious darkness of my life would initiate?uffffffffff i don't know.
Thinking about myself, these days, I frown.Would anybody is as clueless as i am now?Is it possible to be so detached with the reasoning and conscience?Where are the loads of knowledge and experiences i have stored for the so called difficult period of life?I think what I am experiencing is not as bad as I think.Its yet to come.I have whatsoever no clue how my day starts and how it ends.Doing everything as a routine is my daily diary I am being unconscious with my emotion, objective, plans and desire.Late at night when I recall how I took my life earlier i dont have courage to remember.In a way I dont want to remember coz I am deviating from the direction I want to go on and staying in the crossroad, waiting something to happen coz I am aimless at this juncture.
There are many ways infront of me but I dont have the capacity to analyze.Lets say I dont wish to.Why?Again clueless and what?Me aimless.I dont want to do anything in my life.Why one should always think of aims, objectives and goals.Why I can't live my life simple?As others do I can't change this world and I dont want to.I want it remain same for me.Clueless and aimless,me, at present is speechless too.
Everything I talk, think and hope are outrageous for others.I am not normal and I am not doing normal, I know that.But I am speechless coz I don't know what to do.I can't argue with others and I can't brief them about my situation.The individual that was in me, fluent in everything he said, clear in what he thinks,vivid in the decision he takes, focused in the aim he takes, confident in what he does, is no more.
Thinking about myself, these days, I frown.Would anybody is as clueless as i am now?Is it possible to be so detached with the reasoning and conscience?Where are the loads of knowledge and experiences i have stored for the so called difficult period of life?I think what I am experiencing is not as bad as I think.Its yet to come.I have whatsoever no clue how my day starts and how it ends.Doing everything as a routine is my daily diary I am being unconscious with my emotion, objective, plans and desire.Late at night when I recall how I took my life earlier i dont have courage to remember.In a way I dont want to remember coz I am deviating from the direction I want to go on and staying in the crossroad, waiting something to happen coz I am aimless at this juncture.
There are many ways infront of me but I dont have the capacity to analyze.Lets say I dont wish to.Why?Again clueless and what?Me aimless.I dont want to do anything in my life.Why one should always think of aims, objectives and goals.Why I can't live my life simple?As others do I can't change this world and I dont want to.I want it remain same for me.Clueless and aimless,me, at present is speechless too.
Everything I talk, think and hope are outrageous for others.I am not normal and I am not doing normal, I know that.But I am speechless coz I don't know what to do.I can't argue with others and I can't brief them about my situation.The individual that was in me, fluent in everything he said, clear in what he thinks,vivid in the decision he takes, focused in the aim he takes, confident in what he does, is no more.
Insomniac, I am, has spent many nights without closing my eyes.Although days after that are pretty hard for me, no matter how hard I try aimless and speechless will not have interest in sleep.Analyzing present and dreaming of better future is always a fantassy for anyone and that is also and aid for insomniac.Regardless of all, I am still clinged on my past.It hurts,aches but its sweet too.I cannot left it there and want to take on with me.Future I am waiting, I won't shade a penny, will keep all with me, no matter how hard it will be.Because there's no one to control my feelings, its mine and want to manage how i like, freely.
2 comments:
Nice writing.Might be nice to me because its similar to my past.I also used to go through these feelings in my past. If you have written this about ur self then dont worry.Every person in the world passes through these feelings and situation.Do not divert you self towards aimless work. Always work to achieve your aim.Then surely u will have a successful life. Go ahead. Good Luck!!
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thank you well wisher
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