Compromise

Turn your head and recall the days at school, fun at college and just rediscover the labour you have done for the exams.Apart from all of these do you recall any moments in the past? I do.I remember all the compromises i had to make.

I went to school in my nursery though it was fun to play marble in the dusty trail of my village.It was a treacherous act to study hard despite seeing lush green paddy field and kites all over the sky during Dashain.It was disappointing to see a most beautiful girl of the college smiling at me secretly and I as per the practicality had to go other way round, believe me, just to make all of my friends unaware about the incident.That was a torture since I wish to climb up the wall adjoining college classroom and yelled to whole college that she smiled for me.Only for me.

Compromising to go abroad to make others happy and mocking about the incident is also the thing of past.There are many incidents where i feel suffocated and wanted to throw a veil of my personality to be a free man.

Having a job and becoming a grown up man is not so easy, as I feel these days.You have many more responsibilities and you wait for a gathering of friends.Your heart wants to have a party but to show off others you are busy attending a marriage ceremony.You wish to have a glass of cold drinks and enjoy the television Saturday noon but you are programmed to attend a meeting.Can't we enjoy our life on our own?Can't there be a world where there is no competition?Can't we create a society where you don't have to pretend anything?

When you see a death of someone then you realize an eternal truth.What are you trying to achieve through this life?When I watch a dead body ready for a cremation then my heart said that we are helpless and cannot do anything on our own.That is also a compromise and we do with god.We can't withstand a competition in this world and surrender to the lord.I feel that all success and achievement we are witnessing for our immortality is a dream and we will wake up this dream after our death.

There is yet another compromise in our life and that is most important.That is of love.Being married and promising to remain with one another is also a compromise performed by everyone trying to avoid the mortality.But that is not sufficient. Love without commitment is great.But I know it cannot happen.

Compromise is there to made.